Keeping the FOR at bay

My bone scan, CT scan and EKG are on March 24th. My heart scan and last round of injection shots are March 28th. My crazy pants have been on since February 24th. Which means sometimes I am normal (well, as normal as I get) and sometimes I am obsessively checking the scar tissue at my incision site. The lead up to scan day also means that my house is spotless. I clean to de-stress. Today I cleaned my house for 6 hours. I scrubbed my tub, cleaned and reorganized my pantry, washed all the throw blankets, and steam cleaned my floors. I also blared some Bon Jovi while doing it. Boogie and cleaning makes for a great workout. 

I also like to schedule myself like crazy leading up to my scans; might as well channel the energy into productivity! In the next 3 weeks I will be having brunch with friends, taking a trip down to NYC to visit a good college friend, going to see a Bon Jovi cover band, celebrating a friend's birthday, throwing a baby shower, attending an alumni board meeting and trying out a new gym. 

And you know what helps even more, when you have great friends who send you this in the mail: 

A card and a magnet with my two favorite quotes. One from Stuart Scott "You beat cancer by how you live, why you live and the manner in which you live" and one of my new favorites that I found this past year "Don't let the FOR (fear of recurrence) ruin your QOL (Quality of Life)". I have hung them on my magnetic chalk board so that I can look at them every day and remember not to let the FOR take over.