Captain Crazy Banana Pants

My Mother called me yesterday and this is how I answered the phone:

"Captain Crazy Banana Pants Reporting for Duty"

Sometimes waiting to have all your testing is hard. I honestly do much better once it starts, but the anticipation of it can be a little daunting. I am not looking forward to drinking mochaccino flavored barium. This is the time of year where I schedule the heck out of myself and spend as much time with friends and family as possible in order to distract myself.

My schedule has looked something like this: Thursday dinner with friends, Friday asleep at 7:55 pm, Saturday day in Rhode Island with a friend and her toddler, Sunday brunch with friends and their kids, bridesmaid dress shopping for a friend's wedding in the afternoon and dinner with friends in the evening. Sunday was especially ridiculous as the only time by myself was spent riding the train/bus between events.

The past two days after work I have run part of the way home (3.5 miles) with my running back pack that I bought in December and have been waiting for clear sidewalks to use. Yesterday, even the run wasn't enough to quell the underlying anxiety, so I painted part of my deck to look like the green monster and raked my yard. Today, after my run I went to the grocery store because I was out of vanilla and it is impossible to bake without vanilla. Then I made cupcakes. I'm tired, but I think I can be like John Mellencamp and drop my middle name (Banana) and just be Captain Crazy Pants for the next couple of days.By the time I'm ready for my EGD the sedation might cause me to insist on being called The Captain. But, at least I'll have a great story!

I also am buying myself a new comfy outfit to do all my testing in. This way I can spend tomorrow evening shopping for it. Yay distraction techniques.

One thing that really is helping is the gratitude journal. It does help me to focus on all the happy, positive, fun things going on in my life. And when I jam pack my schedule it gives me lots of things and people to be grateful for.

I can't wait to write in my journal: Today, I am grateful for clean scans and negative test results.

Now, who wants a cupcake?