These were the exact words I used in returning a text to my Mother this week in reference to my brain. My memory was not what one would call sharp this week. I forgot my badge for work on day, my water bottle the next. I got only half the spinach I needed for the dip I was making.
I like to see how many things that go wrong, or not usual occurrences, that I can blame on tamoxifen. I know I can definitely blame the hot flashes that plagued me toward the end of the week. (How can it be 15 outside and I still want to take my shoes off?) I like to blame my occasional forgetfulness on it too. Here's the kicker that reads like a bad joke; I keep forgetting to ask my oncologist if that is a side affect. I think I better write it down.
Tuesday's year past chemo celebration continued past shopping and lunch and onto the track. I dressed myself all in some of my finest pink gear and may have taken the opportunity to tell everyone why the day was significant to me, or why I was trying to run off boston cream pie. One of the middle distance guys was saying "Well, this time last year I was never able to hit these times". Me: "Tell me about it, this time last year was my last chemo infusion. Today I ran 32, 100 m intervals." Kind of a conversation stopper. Got a lot of, "Whoa. Congratulations. That's pretty awesome that your back here". It is pretty awesome to be back at practice.
Hosting holiday parties is a lot more festive when your not prepping for you last chemo infusion. I've had a cookie swap every year (minus 3 years during college) for the last 17 years. Last year's party was a little down. This year was a great time. It's a lot nicer when your the host and you can freely eat shared food and don't have to segregate your food to a special plate that tell everyone not to touch it. It also goes better when you remember you have frozen spinach in your freezer to make up for only buying half the fresh your need for the dip. Take that tamoxifen!
I also tried to eat my weight in cookies. I'm pretty sure that I got near 2 dozen cookies consumed. At one point I had a pumpkin whoopie pie in each hand. My digestive system was mad at me later, but totally worth it. I'm pretty sure I would have made the blue guy on the left proud.
Cookie Monster & Jeff Bridges - 'Silver Bells' duet from adamflight on Vimeo.
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