Friday, August 18, 2017


I've had a hard time getting any consistent running going since the DVT's. Not sure why, but have been walking more than anything. To say my fitness is seriously lacking and I have been uninspired would be correct. 

However, I did follow the extremely inspiring story of Gabe Grunewald. The best way to understand her story is to read the great Sports Illustrated article "Athlete gets cancer. Athlete fights cancer. Repeat, again and again..."  It will make any cancer survivor glad they had a common, well researched with well defined treatment. It made this one, very happy that a)I've only had cancer once b) it was the most common kind. 

Today, one of my runner friend's posted the video of Gabe's story and her hunt to go to USA's. 

She may not have secured the qualifier this year, but because so many other athletes didn't get the standard her previous time got her into USA's. After a couple rounds of chemo, it ended up being more of a victory that she was out there (and for the record she still ran really fast!) 

So, I sit here on a Friday, putting a training plan back together. Trying to regain some fitness. I've already proven that I am no longer as quick as I once was, but I do miss have baseline fitness. And I am inspired. 

If you too are inspired you can donate to Gabe's cancer journey you can do so here

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Diagnosis Day-5 Years Out

With the anniversary of my diagnosis day (August 8th, 2012 at 3:30 in the afternoon), my mother and I were discussing the day. She remember's sitting with me wishing it was 5 years from then, when she knew everything would be ok (forever the optimist, that mother of mine).

5 years after hearing, "you have breast cancer". 5 years after being forced to face my own mortality and choosing to let people and all the good in.

5 years of #cancersurvivorproblems.

Now, this is another thing that keeps on growing. When you have had breast cancer and it surprised your doctors, they spend a lot of time trying not to be surprised by things. So, when you are physically active and you still develop blood clots on your long term hormonal treatment, everyone is surprised afain. Then they put you on a poop emoji looking blood thinner. And that's when people start checking on everything (#cancersurvivorproblems).

Because my iron labs have been a little off multiple people advocated that I have a colonoscopy. Oh yeah. I got to drink this 4L jug of poop juice...
It is pictured here with my clear liquid diet and some items featured in my low fiber diet that needed to be consumed leading up to the exam.

And guess what? The anticipation of the colonoscopy is the worst part. The actual prep, isn't pleasant, but for a constipated lady like me (#cancersurvivorproblems), it did get rid of all my belly pain. And I was awake enough that I got to see the inside of my colon. (The science nerd in me was so amped). And there was nothing wrong with it (not just per my visual inspection, also per the gastroenterologist who did my colonoscopy).

5 years ago, I never would have imagined that I would get excited when I put a couple of months together without a doctor's appointment or test. I never would imagine that I would be living with my boyfriend or making travel plans to celebrate my niece's 3rd birthday. I never would've imagined that you can experience overwhelming gratitude about being alive at the same time you feel like human science experiment, but I'm glad I get to.

And who would have known 5 years ago I would wake up singing soulshine. I can deal with all the #cancersurvivorproblems because I'm still here to have them, and it sure is better than rain.